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Barb Rogers' e book begins with the tragic death of her teenage boy, Jon, and delves in to the horror that was her life compared to that point. Due to a home life fraught with chemical and emotional abuse, Barb found herself bottomed out more often than once, and homeless along the way. "When asked in early recovery easily realized any prayers, the one I could think of was the child's nighttime prayer, 'Now I lay down me right down to sleep.' WHEN I thought of it, I recalled the long nights when I simply wanted to fall asleep and never wake up." Barb discovered almost all of her life lessons through pain, tragedy, and obsession. This isn't a glamorous e book, it is real and it is raw. It isn't about success of the fittest, however the weakened, the hopeless, the helpless, the truly addicted, not only to substances, but to play, anger, excuses, and justifications. She explains how she got to her lowest point, precisely what it was, and how and why she finally come to out to a 12-step program for help. She shows the listener what it's really like to survive, to remain clean and sober, and discover ways to the other area. Recovery was one of the most difficult things she ever do, but "worth every work I put out." Barb Rogers would be the first ever to let you know she's not special - she's led a hard life, and she says her storyline well and with humor. Listeners - addicts or not, but especially addicts - will be inspired by Barb's grit: if she can do it, so can they.
